God's Admonition in The Last Day of My Life as A Teenager :)

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Selamat Hari Minggu, semuanya! :)

Gw mau sharing aja tentang apa yang gw dapatkan hari ini. So, hari ini adalah Hari Minggu dan sebagai seorang Kristen gw pun pergi ke gereja untuk beribadah. Gw termasuk orang yang rajin ke gereja tiap minggu, meskipun terkadang bolong-bolong juga sih. Hhe. Tapi seringnya seseorang ke gereja itu belum tentu mencerminkan kalau orang tersebut sangat sangat sangat baik dan tidak bercela atau semacamnya. Justru ada juga yang karena saking rajinnya ke gereja, hal tersebut malah terlihat biasa dan terkesan hanya rutinitas saja untuk dirinya. Yah, kadang gw mengalami perasaan kayak gitu sih. Dimana gw sekadar datang, duduk, nyanyi, tapi pas khotbah malah mengantuk atau mengobrol sama teman sebelah. Urgh. Maaf ya, Tuhan. :(

Tapi hari ini beda. Sangat beda.
Hari ini bisa dibilang gw sangat menikmati kebaktian di gereja dari awal hingga akhir. Apalagi saat lagu pujian sebelum pengakuan dosa. Lagu yang dinyanyikan adalah "Pulihkan Negeri Kami". Gw ikut bernyanyi tetapi sampai di tengah lagu, gw ga mampu lagi menyanyikan lagu tersebut dan mulai pengen nangis. Dan tibalah saatnya pengakuan dosa, dimana saatnya gw berdoa mengakui dosa-dosa gw sama Tuhan dan mohon ampun sama Tuhan, tapi gw... gw speechless dalam doa gw. Bahkan itu harusnya doa dalam hati, tapi gw tetap ga mampu ngomong apa-apa dalam hati. Gw cuma bisa nangis. Menyadari betapa selama ini gw rese abis jadi orang, betapa egoisnya gw, betapa gw mengecewakan Tuhan. Tapi lihat apa yang Tuhan balas untuk sikap gw yang seperti itu? Berkat-berkat yang countless. Countless. :')

Lalu, singkat cerita, tiba saat khotbah. Inti khotbah hari ini adalah tentang majikan dan budak. Berkaitan dengan perikop, Inang Pendeta meceritakan suatu ilustrasi mengenai seseorang yang pada suatu hari melihat ada seorang gadis belia yang diperjualbelikan sebagai budak. Ia merasa iba terhadap gadis tersebut, hingga akhirnya ia "membeli" gadis tersebut. namun, keesokan harinya orang tersebut mengutus bawahannya untuk memberikan surat kepada gadis tersebut. Gadis tersebut pun membuka surat itu dan membaca tulisan di dalamnya: FREE. BEBAS. Yang artinya gadis tersebut sekarang bukan lagu budak siapapun. Ia adalah miliknya, dirinya sendiri. Saking senangnya gadis itu, ia pun bertanya kepada pembawa surat, "Siapakah yang membeli dan membebaskan saya itu? Saya ingin mengabdi padanya selamanya." Itu menunjukkan betapa besar rasa terima kasih gadis itu terhadap orang yang membebaskan ia.

Lalu, refleksi diri. Sebenarnya cerita tersebut merupakan ilustrasi atas kisah Allah dan manusia. Allah, yang telah rela mengorbankan Putra-Nya yang tunggal, telah membebaskan kita, umat manusia, dari belenggu dan perbudakan dosa. Ia telah menyelamatkan kita dari maut. Namun, apakah respon kita atas berkat tersebut? Bersyukurkah kita? Seperti gadis yang berkomitmen untuk mengabdi pada pembebasnya selamanya, begitukah kita?

Sebelum jawab pertanyaan itu, ini dulu deh... Sebenarnya kita sadar nggak sih berapa harga keselamatan yang Tuhan kasih ke kita? Kalau kita sadar betapa priceless yang Tuhan berikan ke kita, tentu kita tidak akan menyia-nyiakannya dengan segala tindakan dan sikap kita yang masih seringkali mengecewakan Tuhan. Kalu kita sadar betapa priceless berkat yang Tuhan berikan kepada kita, kita pasti akan bersikap seperti gadis tadi, memberikan diri kita sepenuhnya kepada Allah sebagai wujud syukur atas keselamatan kita. About the answer, just say it in your heart. :)

Nah, tadi Inang Pendeta juga ada berbicara seperti ini, "Saya melihat wajah Kristus di wajah-wajah kalian, wajah yang penuh dengan senyuman, juga yang penuh dengan kesulitan yang sudah dilalui bersama-sama dengan Tuhan..." Dan saat itu, gw hanya bisa menunduk. Antara mau nangis, juga malu sama Tuhan. Pantaskah... pantaskah gw dibilang mencerminkan wajah Kristus? Mengingat betapa useless-nya dan seringnya gw mengecewakan Tuhan, pantaskah gw dibilang mencerminkan wajah Kristus? I couldn't stand it, I started to cry. :'(

Pokoknya, khotbah dan lagu-lagu di gereja hari ini benar-benar menyentuh dan menohok gw. Gw berpikir Tuhan menegur gw banget banget banget hari ini. Gw harus berubah mulai sekarang. Hingga pada saatnya gw benar-benar pantas menerima ucapan "Kau mencerminkan wajah Kristus." dengan senyuman. Mungkin akan bayak rintangan, tapi kalau ada niat dan bimbingan dari Tuhan niscaya bisa. I'll try, I'll pray. Bless me, God! Amen. :)

with gratefulness,
sterpatrz :)

SINGAPORE TRIP *LOOKING FOR LOVE*

SO NOW I COME BACK WITH NEW STATUS…

I’M AN ELF WHO HAVE WATCHED SUPER SHOW! YEAY!

AND I WILL WATCH SUPER SHOW AGAIN NEXT TIME. AMEN. :)

*deep breath* okay, start.

1ST DAY START

Detination: Soekarno Hatta International Airport, Changi Airport

Our Fuel: Almost Nothing (starvinggg~)

Maybe it sounds crazy for people who know me well. You can say that I’m a “new” ELF. I’ve become an ELF since around May or June (?) Around the time I was watching “Oh My Lady”, Siwon’s drama and Super Junior’s comeback with the 4^th album, Bonamana. But I’m already very passionate to watch Super Show… abroad. Yes, seems like Super Junior has no plan yet to come to Indonesia or what, I decided to chase after them to other country. Hahaha. Luckily, they held Super Show 3 in Singapore. Singapore is so near to Indonesia. And the airplane fare is quite reachable. And also, the date is perfect. I was still on holiday in that date, January 29^th, 2011. So, I and some of my friends who also students from University of Indonesia, but with different faculties, planned our trip to Singapore. First, I just wanna watch S3 there. But again, I was thinking that it’s so unefficient with the plane fare and hostel fee. So, I decided to have a journey there, too. I was in Singapore for 5 days. But the effective day is 4 days though. Because I flew to Singapore in evening, then my friends and I stayed in Changi until tomorrow morning. No no no, actually you can not spend a night in Changi unless you’re in transit to another country.

1ST DAY END

2ND DAY START

Destination: Kak Vira’s house, Chinatown (only The Chinatown Point), Merlion Park, Mustafa

Our fuel: Indomie, Korean food, Rice with “Abon”

*continuing the 1st day story*

"So, how could you and your friends…?"

That’s your respond, right? That’s why, guys. That’s why we were frightened in that early morning. While we were sleeping in Changi’s rest area (Changi Airport is something like shopping mall. I love it!), some officers woke us up and asking for our passport. They were asking us: “Do you have a passport, miss? What’s your destination? Singapore? Then, why do you stay here? It’s just for people who transit, you know… I’m not really sure if the immigration officers will let you pass if you stay here for more than 10 hours, bla bla bla.”

I was frightened that we might be fined or else. You know Singapore is a fine city. And I was like “Oh, beware. Don’t do that! Catch the plastic bag, ah~ Remember, the fine. 500 SGD of fine, bla bla bla.” everyday in Singapore. Hahaha. But fortunately (Thank God!), they let us pass and we were heading out as soon as possible to Changi’s waiting area, the proper area for us. Hhe. We waited until around 5-6 am to catch the first MRT and heading to our booked hostel. It’s not hostel actually, but a house on Dunearn Road (near to Bukit Timah), 3^rd-stories house which its rooms are rented (Thanks kak Vira for renting your rooms to us!).

As soon as we reached the house, we took a bath and got ready to go exploring Singapore. But we had no exact plan though. So, when we’re ready to go out, another group just came. In that group, there were Ibeth, Ira, Dewi, and Abeth. So, we ended up by going along with them. We started that journey by taking a bus to… umm, I forget the name of that place, but that place has Sticky, a hand-made candy store, in it. Inda and some other friends bought candies there. But I didn’t. And now I regret it a bit. Urgh.

Then, we continued our journey to Chinatown. I expected a lot from this spot. I heard this place sells many things that considered cheap. But I thought it’s in the market that located somewhere in Chinatown. We didn’t find it. For exact, we didn’t really search for it because it’s already 3 or 4 PM and we still wanted to go to Merlion Park. So, we just ate in a Korean Restaurant. I ordered Pork Cutlet: around 8 SGD or Rp 56,000,- perhaps.

After we filled up our stomach, we went to Merlion Park. We took MRT and stopped at Raffles station, took some pictures while walking to Merlion Park. As we reached the Merlion Park, the intensity of “click” sounds from our camera became more often, hahaha. Anyway, my first impression when I reached the place is… “WHOA! That three buildings with a ship-like thing on their top is amazing. The esplanade is cool, too. But the Merlion statue is not as big as I imagined before, But still, it’s cool!” I think we eight took 1 -2 hour for only taking pictures of ourselves there. Hahaha. Really. -_- Oh, then we found ice cream seller. Yippie-kay-yay! I ignored my sicken throat (I’ve been coughing at that time, even now… still. Urgh.) and bought that “seems-yummy” ice cream (I looks like “es potong”, but it’s cube and has wafer on its two sides). I chose the mint- flavored with a hope that it will help my throat. Mint is good for throat, rite? No? Ah, okay. Whatever. Impression: YUMMY ICE CREAM. :9 Enjoy your guilty pleasure, Ester! Hahaha. :)

Then, as the day went night, we decided to go to next place: Mustafa. This place almost has everything inside. But I didn’t have time to explore it or even entere the Mustafa Center (is it the right name?). No, not because of its business hours. It opens 24 hours. But our time is limited. We must catch the bus before 11 PM. Or we wouldn’t get able to go home. We could get a taxi, but it’s expensive-lah so we didn’t want it. Hhe. So, we just shopped at some stores along the road. We bought some souvenirs, mugs, something like that. Ah, in this place, Ane met her soulmate. Hahaha. No, just kidding. But, there was a coconut seller offering coconut to us by saying “Coconut, coconut, miss” with a rather-funny accent (for us). And it made Ane’s day, I think. Hahaha. Right, Ane? :)

Then, we went home by MRT, and then bus number 171 from Newton Road. Oh, our bus is always full of people. *sigh* Then, as soon as we reached home… what? I don’t remember it. We had to eat dinner… but AH! Ane, Inda, Popy, and I bought rice from a Chinesse restaurant behind the house, then ate it with the “Abon” I brought. Hhe, useful “Abon”. Very very cheap dinner, only 50 cents guys. :) Oh yeah, 50 cents! You’re starting to rap? Hhe.

2ND DAY END


That's it for today. For the 3rd, 4th, and 5th day of my trip to SIngapore will be posted later. Have a nice day. :)

With excitement,
sterpatrz :)

BECOME AN ELF? WHADDAYA MEAN?

THIS POST SHOULD BE POSTED LAST YEAR.
I WROTE IT AT SEPTEMBER 12TH, 2010.
So, here it is guys...

Hey, there! How’s life?

Here I come again with my messy writing. Hahaha. :)

It’s such a long time since I posted in this blog. It’s already four months ago when I said I lost my spirit (yang tentunya agak lebay, hhe.) and here I come, already found my spirit again. I guess. :)

Want to know what kind of spirit I got? Okay, I’ll tell you guys.

So, gw adalah seorang remaja (okay then, I was a teenager) yang suka banget sama k-drama, drama seri korea. Gw suka drama korea kira-kira sejak gw masuk SMA, zamannya Princess Hours. It’s my first favourite k-drama. Ya, tentu saja gw juga suka Full House, yang sebenarnya sudah tayang di Indosiar sejak gw SMP. Namun, karena dulu gw lebih sering bermain ke rumah teman waktu pulang sekolah, gw ga sempat ngikutin Full House di tv. Dan gw baru mengenal Full House setelah SMA, setelah Indosiar memutarnya ulang. Begitu juga yang terjadi dengan Coffee Prince. Saat teman SMA gw heboh pengen cepat pulang dan nonton CP di rumah, gw sebodo amat. Dan baru tahu kalo CP itu ternyata k-drama yang oke banget saat kuliah, lagi-lagi ketika Indosiar memutarnya ulang di malam hari. Hhe. Gong Yoo~ *wink wink*

Nah, setelah gw kuliah ini hobi gw menonton k-drama sangatlah ditunjang dengan keberadaan sederet kios DVD (err, okay bajakan) di lingkutan sekitar kampus gw. Namun awalnya gw jarang membeli DVD k-drama karena satu drama biasanya punya 3-4 disc, jadi gw beli DVD film aja. Lama-kelamaan, banyak disc DVD yang gw beli tiap minggu bertambah dan jadilah gw rajin membeli k-drama. Ada yangbaru, langsung gw beli. Kemarin gw membeli Oh My Lady!, Personal Taste, dan Prosecutor Princess dalam waktu 3-weeks-in-a-row. Hahaha.

Ga cuma k-drama aja, gw juga suka sama soundtrack-soundtracknya. Gw pun akan online untuk mendownload OST k-drama yang gw suka itu. But seriously, in that time, I wasn’t into k-pop. At that time, my friend in twitter already loved to posted anything related about k-pop, like Jaebum or else. I just thought “Err, what’s this?” at that time and ignored it. And when my friend showed me an MV of Super Junior’s Sorry Sorry, I was like “Err, okay. It’s rather cool, the music and the dance. But, hey so much people in a group? And you said they’re handsome? Which one? Their faces just look the same for me. I can’t differ them.”

BUT, GUESS WHAT?

NOW I’M A BIG FAN OF THEM… SUPER JUNIOR. Ahhh, how could this be?

Even my friend who showed me that video doesn’t like suju anymore, but me?

I’m fangirling like crazy everytime I see any pic, video, or info about them. Jiah, help me! Hahaha. -..-

Then, I’ve become an ELF, what Super Junior call their fans. EverLasting Friends. It’s rather nice, huh? Although many fans that said ELF doesn’t sound cool enough. Hahaha. But it’s okay-lah ya.

(bentar, sejak kapan gw ngetik jadi pake Bahasa Inggris? *baru nyadar*)

Nah, tentang mengapa gw bisa menjelma jadi ELF? Gw juga bingung awalnya gimana. Mungkin gw harus nge-cek tweet gw di masa lampau. Hahaha. So, saat itu gw lagi suka Lee Min Ho, teman gw yang bernama Rara juga. Lalu, dia pernah nge-tag gw di video yang membandingkan Lee Min Ho sama Jang Geun Suk, itu sebelum gw nonton You’re Beautiful. Nah, setelah gw nonton k-drama itu, gw juga jadi suka sma JGS. *wink wink*

Terus ya, waktu itu gw juga suka sama Siwon, tapi belum terlalu suka. Rara emang suka Siwon juga. Terus gw nonton Oh My Lady! Dan tambah klepek-klepek sama Siwon. Waktu MV Bonamana keluar, Rara heboh. Inda – Popy juga. Saat itu, yang gw kenal di Super Junior baru Siwon. Tapi sebenarnya gw udah beli dan nonton secuplik Full House (Super Junior) sih. Gw penasaran, gw ngeliatin video dan segala macamnya yang diputar Inda di laptop-nya. Gw mulai download Super Junior thingy sendiri.

Sampe gw youtube-ing dan menemukan video tentang Funny Moment-nya Super Junior, and the videos I found are REALLY REALLY UBER HILARIOUS! And maybe at that time, I started to love the boyband named Super Junior. Lalu, suatu hari gw numomot beberapa video Kak Becca tentang variety show-nya Super Junior, dan video-video itu, terutama EXPLORING HUMAN'S BODY (EHB), membuat gw tambah cinta sama mereka. Oh my! Hahaha. :3

Lalu, mulailah gw download MV dan lagu mereka. Sebelumnya gw udah minta sealbum Sorry Sorry ke Inda, hhe. Sampai suatu hari, gw mendapatkan video Intimate Note, dimana di situ Heechul tampan sangat dengan rambut pendeknya nan hitam dan ada scene dimana dia “berubah wujud” jadi Heesica. Dan gila ya… DIA MANIS BANGET DI SITU! Jadi suka. >.< (Eh, lw normal ga sih? Hahaha.)

Padahal dulu waktu nonton Full House pertama kali, gw mikirnya ke Heechul “Nih orang bacot banget sih!”, hahaha. Kualat apa ya? hha. Dan itu udah deket tanggal ulang tahunnya dia. Dan ketika heechul ulang tahun, gw browsing all about him di internet. Gw menemukan fan-made video dari Petals (sebutan untuk fans Heechul) Thailand untuk ultah Heechul. And oh my, the video is really really impressed me. That petal made a song with wonderful lyrics. She must be made it with all her heart. Even though I watch the video thousand times (of course, I’m lebay here!), I still feel like crying so hard. Salute for her. :)

It’s like that. So, Heechul is my 1^st in SJ and Siwon at 2^nd. Sorry, Siwon-ssi. But I still love you. Anyway, Heechul and Siwon is like “black or white”, eh? If you know what I mean, hhe. :)

with the power of ELF,

sterpatrz :)